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This was not an easy task.

Over the last month, many of you have been with me on a journey to first, get past the fears that we have been holding on to for so very long- way too long. We talked in depth on what exactly was holding us back from being where we wanted to be or even taking a step towards the life that we feel is for us.

This is crummy. Nothing truly feels like looking at a life that you think is for you, yet looking through someone else’s lens because we haven’t quite taken the leap to get there.

I’ve seen the life I want, yet I’ve seen someone else living it. I sat back and wondered, what was special about them, what did they do that I couldn’t do? Did they have some sort of pass, hookup, got lucky?

At some point, I finally gave into my fears and totally released them. They still pop up here and there, but they cannot attach themselves to me. They come and go, and are now only passing.

I TRULY understand that nothing good will happen in life, if I am afraid, don’t make a move, wait on others, wait for little plastic awards to be given to me, wait for my name to be mentioned, wait to be nominated.

Yep CEOs, that bullshit and totally for the birds.

We have ideas dripping from our fingertips and all that is required is that we RELEASE. Simply release. Release that fear. Stop asking questions. Stop asking what you can or cannot do, and just freakin DO.

Be the first.

Be the only.

Be the example.

You.

Yes you.

We know a few of you will sit and wait, and ponder, and wait and research, and wait while the years pass you by. That’s harsh, but if you sit in your quiet place and think on this- you know I’m not lying. Some of us will just never get to the point that we don’t wait for the instruction manual.

But I still want you in the community. If nothing else, my words and our free products will give you encouragement and make you feel empowered whether you decide to do something with that empowerment or not.

Some of you can’t wait for the gun to go off. If I got the G you got the O! I love those few who hop CLEAN on new lessons and start implementing.

Actually, I love you all, because you are with us, and you think enough of me to listen to what I have to say. So we have something for both groups.

For those who need more encouragement, a little more time, need to form a create committee first 🙂 Here’s the FREE 3 Week Video Series for you.

For those who are like, ummmm Kristi, you don’t have to tell me twice, I’m ready to change and I don’t need a catalyst to do it, for this group…… Here is the special creation for you.  

I don’t hope. I don’t wish. I am expecting greatness from you and from myself. See you on the other side of fear.

 

2 Winners of the eCourse Creator’s Blueprint ( Melissa Ambers and Francisca Ampratwam, please email me at kristi@womenceoproject.com for your link)

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From www.powerculturemag.com Issue 4 ” The Marketing, Social Media & PR Holy Grail” 

by: Kristi L. Jackson 

 

I used to think my limitations could only be unlocked when I became worthy. That there was some status, some position that I’d one day attain, when I had developed enough skills, the right contacts, the proper look, confidence, and had gotten permission. 

 

I put many of my ideas, my thoughts, my dreams on hold, but articulated them nicely in a journal of things I wrote but never thought I’d actually attempt and tucked them neatly in my drawer. I made sure to never add dates or names, and wrote in cryptic code because even in my private moments, my most intimate thoughts, in my being, I didn’t want to be exposed as a failure or reminded of what I didn’t achieve. 

 I didn’t cry for years, like 10. I thought this made me strong. I hid behind a proper, perfect mask. I hid everything I actually wanted.  

Coloring well within the lines, I keep my dreams, my goals quiet, attainable, non-ambitious, comfortable to my friends, my family, to myself. I never expanded, walked on the edge or even looked at the edge. 

 Fear. 

 My world changed in April 2008. It’s almost an anniversary. I can’t say what, but I can say how, my life, my desire, my ambition changed metaphorically. 

 

My family has always been the center of my world, and at a moment, I was faced with the reality of possibly losing my most loved, most trusted, consistent, cherished, confident, friend, my deepest love. 

 

My “Right now”, my future was staring me directly in the face. Life was as fragile as a feather and could be blown away in seconds. Why exactly had I been holding back? Why wasn’t I living my future now? Who exactly was I awaiting permission from? Whose approval did I need? 

 

I had all of the tools, the resources, the knowledge needed. What I was waiting on was “a go”. I thought I needed someone to say it was ok. What I really needed was to be presented with the lack of time to realize that it was imperative to make important use of my valuable present. 

I didn’t need to be given an opportunity, a committee, applause, permission or to be given a platform. 

I needed to create my own platform. My opportunities rested in the palm of my hand. All that was required was giving myself permission to say yes to the passions and the purpose that had been burning and residing deep within my belly. 

I needed to make my family, my mother proud of me now, not later. 

My 2008 was difficult. I have never experienced such a tragedy and a blessing within the same lesson. I am so appreciative of the clearance of trees, the sense of clarity, the recognition of urgency, and finding the why to my purpose. 

I have to remind myself as I write this, that it’s ok to cry. It’s ok to admit that in the past, you gave more credit to your excuses than credence to your opportunities. It’s ok to recognize your lack of effort especially if it’s a precursor to your abundance of tenacity, your feelings of limitless possibilities and your uncontainable happiness and appreciation of life, of family and in discovery and acceptance of your talents. 

For the last 3 years, I have been living my journal, entry by entry, not without fear, but with an absence of excuses. With my mother looking on, hoping that she understands my deepest desire is to make her proud of me, but knowing that even if she is not, hoping that she respects and somehow admires that even though I’m not using my degrees, not doing the job she expected or giving her beautiful grandchildren, that I’ve finally found my passion and want to help, educate, and encourage women in the world, for the rest of my life. 

My only hope is that in opening up to you ladies, that in sharing one of my deepest most intimate lessons, my urgency, my “why”, that I encourage and inspire you to pause, to unlock your own chains, to deeply reflect and start living your passions now. 

Ladies, if you were waiting for the right time, waiting for a sign, if you needed someone to tell you this……I finally found my “go” , now I give it to you. 

 

With Great Expectations, 

Kristi